The truth is I've been having a crappy few weeks and I just want to blog about it, and vent all over the place. Because some days I feel like no one really knows me at all, even those who are suppose to know me best. So no funny misadventures with the kids this week, and definitely no exciting news to share except that I've been living with a crazed 3yr old who runs around screaming and peeing everywhere. and demanding every second of my day. and this makes me feel like a horrible mom because I just want to get in the car and drive away, or start a prescription drug habit to stay sane. And I feel like a hack in sweats everyday with no chance of escape. Why am I wondering about going back to school, or adding things to the short list of things that define me? I must be having some sort of midyear crisis, and hopefully I'll snap out of it soon.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
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I get on-and-off depression during the winter months. Everything around me starts to bug me, and all I want to do is be alone or sleep. I was told that sometimes tanning can help out with this, so I tried it, and it really does help. Maybe Pete can watch the kids one night and you can take a "you" day and hit a tanning bed.
Give it a try! If it doesnt help your stress, atleast you get some color!
oh my goodness i could of wrote this same blog...i was just telling wade that i feel like i am going to have a crisis or something like that soon. gosh wish we were closer then we could have it together.
I am in the same boat!!! I felt like I was going to punch a wall today if I had to listen to my kids whine to me one more time or kick someone (not my kids, just some random stranger) I think it is the cold and the dark and no sun....or we moms just need a break once in a while.
Or maybe if I just had time to get in the shower and get dressed, I would have felt better.
I sound like a really mean mom...I hope not.
Okay, I am worse because I am currently in CA with my in-laws, so I am in the sun and they are giving me frequent breaks from Tanner. I still had a moment today when I couldn't handle his crying and I wanted to tell him to be quite and then I wanted to cry myself because I felt so guilty having those mean thoughts.
I come home on Sunday! Give me a call and we can figure out something fun to do together. :)
Full Spectrum light bulbs help...big, absorbent diapers if thats what he wants... toffee cookies for you and a new fetish (how about baking with whole grains?? or making pillows like Mom,)read Eat Pray Love, and COME TO UTAH so we can make fun of beauty pageant contests pushing around $600 strollers at the Mall,eat at Porcupine Grill, take the girls to the Zoo, and have an Easter Party so Chad can take amazingly cute pictures.
Also...you're not making this mother of two thing look very appealing for me.
This weather is pretty lousy. We should definitely go out and have some fun. Give me a call and we'll take the kids somewhere.
i totally relate!! some days i think i really do want to run away from home. not forever, just for the day. I hate my hair right now so it's either in a bun or braid and Ellie can't remember why she's in time-out so she has to stay there. will it be all afternoon? maybe i should enjoy it...
All I can say is AMEN. I was telling some friends a similar story a couple weeks ago, and they mentioned it might be the weather, which honestly had not crossed my mind. I think my husband was even a little concerned when he jokingly asked me if I just hate my life right now. I hope you can find something to lift you spirit. I started walking with a friend in the morning (without children) which seems to be making a little bit of a difference.
P.S. I really appreciate your honesty. Just from reading the comments on this post, it sounds like a lot of us have been feeling the same way, and you were the only one with the guts to put it on your blog. You go girl!
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